I am excited to bring you all another update. Just a reminder my second Instagram account is now Curvybee_RNY_ (here). Since January of this year I have been on this Weight Loss Surgery (wls) journey. With the support from Nurse Practitioner, surgeon, my family, boyfriend, and friends I am proud to say I had my surgery May 12, 2017. Guilt is real when dealing with food and being more active now.
I know there are a lot of you confused by this post, because everything seems to be going well for since surgery but there are a few things I have not mentioned. First up is food. I used love food and kinda still do, but since surgery I had to change my relationship with food. I had to stop using food as a celebratory tool, you know eating because I passed a class or eating because I actually worked out. My motto now is to “eat to live not living to eat.” Also, a major difference is the fact that I can no longer tolerate some of favorite foods. No more beef, chocolate, or white carbs.
I can no longer tolerate microwaved food, I now use a convection oven while at work and the regular oven when reheating food at home. That was a big struggle early on, because when you are reheating food you are ready to eat and now I have to wait before eating. On the upside is that my food tastes so much better.
I have a little guilt, because I feel like I waited to live. It is weird that I have this guilt, because I honestly I felt like I was living my best life prior to surgery. Yet, I am so much more open to trying new things. I have been out more this year than probably all of last year. There is a mixture between feeling better in terms of not feeling tired all of the time or worrying about my ankle looking like a grapefruit while enjoying a night out. With all of the changes I do not feel guilty about having surgery and I will continue to live my best life. So happy to be down 80 pounds!!!
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